Miserable Birthday Eve

Yup. That's what I'm feeling right now. Not because Loong is unwell. But because I can't do anything to help him recover fast. It's beyond my control to take care of him in this house. I feel like everything that I bought for him to eat or drink might be best just throw into the dustbin. Wasted my time, energy, lunch skipping, money, effort. Mother doesn't let him eat or drink whatever things I bought. Not the coconut (luckily I bought 1 only, just in case, you know...), watermelon, asked my Mommy to help buy RM13 cost of chinese herbal medicine for Covid, oranges & lemons. Oh, oranges & lemons are the only thing allowed. Others? Oh they make cough worse. Ok... Fine. Maybe each person, each family's way of dealing with Covid is different. Perhaps doing nothing, eating nothing will cure Covid. I really don't want to talk about this on my blog, who knows someone really read it & tell Mother how bad am I as daughter-in-law complaining from behind. I just want to have my own voice in my blog. I'm alone without my parents by my side. I tried to do my best to take care of my husband which I absolutely, completely, totally failed now. So I surrender now, let him or his Mother decide. I'm just an outsider, I know my position & have no right to give the "wrong" food to her son to consume. His Mother knows him best. While I just knew him for 7 years. So I, hereby surrender, I did what I can, I'm heartbroken, & I'm sorry for making him unable to recover, I'm gonna leave all to his Mother. Get well soon Loong... Love you always.

To reward myself for working hard for my family on both sides & career, I painted myself Barbie-coloured nails.

It's 16 minutes to my 34th Birthday.

Happy Birthday Leonora!! Goodbye 33!!

33 years have been a huge blessing to me!

Thank you Lord!! Jesus loves you, Leonora!

🥳💖🎂🍾🍷🌃

Loong Got Covid 😢

Loong is tested positive today. Having fever & sore throat. 😷 This is the 1st time he got Covid. I tried to do the best that I can to take care of him. Thank God there is Mother to cook for him. I bought some oranges & lemon for making juices. Hope he get well soon. Meanwhile, Mother prepared tilam for me to sleep in the living room. Thanks Mother! Get well soon Loong.... May God give you a speedy recovery.

Love you. 😢💗

Camping in the living room... 🏕️

Paintball is Literally "Painball" 😂

Today my colleague Jackie organised paintball as our company's SRC event. Omgosh let me tell you, the pain is no joke. My hands got shot exactly on my thumb joint & the blood veins on my backhand. I was the 1st player to surrender after just 3mins (i think, everything was moving so fast during the game) into the game. Loong was the MVP. No bulletproof vest, didn't got shot at all on his body except for his face. Someone shot his helmet. All my colleagues & their children played very well to stay until bullets ran off. The fee was RM300, each person has 200 bullets. So you have to finish the bullets so that it's worth your money. Well, it's definitely a great experience, although tiring (feeling dizzy while walking out of the battlefield to surrender), but also definitely this is the 1st & last time. I don't understand why go through pain to play the game. Most of my colleagues suffered terrible bruises. Here are some photos as a memory. Of course I want to prove my injuries too. Hahaha..

Team Black. Not the Targaryen Team Black ok. Lol. Jackie, Loong, me, Esther, Clarence, Shahril & that's Clarence's son at the back I think.

i stepped on the mud and it splashes on Shahrul. Sorry! 😥

Till next time, see you again in the next post! 😆

3 Months, 19 Days After I Got Married - I'm Finally Back After A Looooong Hiatus!!

 Holla!!! OMG I finally have time to reappear again in this blog. Exactly 3 months & 19 days after I disappeared from radar, trying to adapt into a new family's home, doing what a wife should do, taking care of Loong (erm, he takes care of me more cos I'm living with his family 😆). Well, so far so good with MIL & DIL. Not as bad as I thought married life would be, especially living with MIL. Except that I didn't expect that Mom & Dad would still being so hard of letting me go/move out not living with them. Mom needs to chat with me every night while Dad always ask when will I be coming back to spent some nights. I've been coming back home to sleep once or twice per week, mostly on Thurs to Sat afternoon.

Ok enough of reporting. Haha.. Here's some of my pre wedding photos. Will be uploading some of my actual wedding day photos soon (when I'm free 😆).